and other times... it just happens... no warning... I'm just driving down the road, and I burst into tears. Am I a chick or what?
Currently, I feel like crying because I charged my bank account 8 dollars last night for a cd off of iTunes, and Ryan pissed me off shortly after so I slammed my lap top shut, and I just realized that doing so messed up the downloads.... I only got three of the 15 or so songs. Ughhh. So frustrating.
Another reason I feel like crying is because of how my parents portray my relationship with Ryan. Well, Ryan blew out a tire on his vehicle on the way over to my house today, so we asked my dad if he could help us change it out. Turns out, the guy who sold Ryan his P.O.S. sports car failed to include a spare tire in the deal. Well, my dad asked if he had a jack (I think that's what it's called) so he could get a closer look at the other side of the wheel or something... and Ryan was like "ugh, I don't think I have one of those either..." and my dad chewed him out. He was like "That's just stupid... you don't go ANYWHERE without a spare tire and a jack"... and he shook his head and walked off.
I think my dad is just frustrated, because he knows that Ryan and I are in a serious relationship and he wants my future provider to be a little more responsible than what Ryan has shown him so far.
And, I can't get mad at Ryan because he's already upset that he blew his tire out... and it's just a mess.
His dad is supposed to call us in the morning after he talks to someone about the tire (which means he'll be staying up pretty late in New Zealand time)... and then I'll have to go pick him up and drive across town before going to work at 1... so overall, it's just inconvenient for everyone.
Okay, this probably breaks some copyright laws, but I have to share the lyrics to a song that made me burst into tears when I heard it.
I was making deliveries for work, while driving down Knickerbocker (pretty busy street, about 7 total lanes of traffic) and this song came on the radio. I honestly don't know why I cried... because really, I don't cry often... but before I could realize what was happening... my cheeks were wet. God just touched my heart.
Here's the song:
(copied directly from air1.com)
Jonny Diaz - More Beautiful You
From the album More Beautiful You
Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight
Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body your hair
Are perfect just the way you are
There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you
Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead
Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel that you are
Chorus
So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forgets
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with his light he will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl
Label: INO Records
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