Little Rose

To be honest, I'm a little overwhelmed. I feel like crying and I'm frustrated because I'm not sure if its from joy, sadness, or some crazy mixture of both.

God is so good! As I was sitting here in my quiet apartment contemplating my somewhat heavy heart, I heard something outside and looked out the window to see rain falling gloriously to the ground. Praise the good Lord in heaven! This makes my heart smile because just 3-4 hours ago, my small group was praying for rain. Such wonderful reassurance that God hears us when we cry out to Him.

The Christian Campus Center went to retreat this past weekend. It was a great time. Our guest speaker was Milton Jones, president of the Christian Relief Fund. I must say, he is a REALLY neat guy. His stories are truly remarkable. I recommend his blog.

www.miltonjonesblog.com

www.christianrelieffund.org

I'm excited to say that this weekend, my small group decided to sponsor a little girl, through the Christian Relief Fund who was displaced by the earthquake in Haiti. She is 3 years old and her name is Rose. I love her so much. She was the first face I saw in the sea of sponsorship cards. She's beautiful. They're all beautiful, but I know that this was the child for our group. I feel this odd connection with her. And I want her to know how much she really is loved. We only have one picture of her right now, but I will try to post it soon.

I can't imagine how much love someone can feel for their own, flesh and blood, child. I'll probably never meet Rose, but she's already changing my life.

I ask for prayers for little Rose, and for my group as we take on the responsibility of this sponsorship. I also ask for prayers for myself. I know it may sound selfish, but I'm just in a funk right now. I'm wanting to do so much to further God's kingdom, but I find myself getting in the way. I need to truly hand everything over to Him, and quit trying to deal with my struggles on my own. I also need to quit taking out my hurt, anger, and other frustrations on other people. I'm working on being a nicer person, because really, as a Christian, I'm setting a lousy example with all this negativity I've allowed in my life.

On that note, I think I'll finish this episode of Grey's Anatomy and head to bed. Ryan went to bed early because he pulled an all-nighter last night doing tons of homework. I love him even though he does such crazy things.