If you want to freak yourself out... google melanoma. I wish I had been more educated about this disease before being diagnosed with it... perhaps I could have prevented it. Now, every time a freckle looks suspicious, it has to be cut out of my body and sent in for testing. And then there's the wait... do I have cancer again? What if I do? I'd like to say that I wasn't worried about it... but gosh, it really is an awful feeling in your gut. My mind goes there... what if I have to have more of my forehead removed... will my skin stretch even further than it already has? What if I have to have chemotherapy... will it mess with my body? Could this disease kill me? Should Ryan and I have not waited to have children?
People die every HOUR from melanoma. It can spread to your internal organs and KILL YOU. I'm not sure many people know that about the disease. A lot of people have said to me "geez, your doctors seem quick to cut... that spot seemed harmless..." Well we'd rather be safe than sorry. And goodness, don't even get me started on the cost of all of this. I don't even want to think of how much chemo would add on to our current stack of bills. Praise God for my hard working husband who has been working full time and going to school full time so we can have health insurance.
I'm also glad my husband is cool with these scars I'm accumulating. God bless that man's sweet soul. Heaven knows I don't deserve him.
Sorry this post is a downer... I'm honestly just freaking out a little bit. Trying to stop now... going to pray pray pray, then try to hit the hay... heheh.
Peace and blessings to all of you. <3 nbsp="">
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