Wheew! Where has time gone?

I can't remember the last time I wrote in this thing... but I guarantee a LOT has happened since then! Ryan and I have officially been married for over a year now (seriously... time flies). We've renewed our lease in the same apartment for another year primarily because of the convenience of its proximity to Ryan's work (we still only have one car for the time being). He is currently finishing up the final project for an online computer gaming class. It was his first time to do a summer course, and I'm proud of him. :) He's registered for full time in the fall, and received a substantial amount of Pell Grant money. We are blessed. I definitely couldn't have worked full time AND been a full time student like he's been for the past few years. I married a super hero.

As for me, I'm still working at Studio Stream (Sonic Live Radio) and I was recently promoted! I'm still a DJ, but now doing so much more. I even have my own office! It's been fun finding random stuff to decorate it with. :) I'm working full time as an On-Air Personality, Music Director, and Administrative Assistant to the President of the company. Definitely building up my resume, and I love it here! I'm not sure I've explained how Studio Stream works on here before, but Sonic Live Radio is just one (a HUGE one, but just one) channel that we provide. I'm currently in charge of maintaining our Coffee House, Country, and Office channels. The duties for that entail researching and recording in music and making the schedules/logs for what will air and when. I love my job and often find myself wondering "am I really working right now?" because I'm listening to music and googling lyrics. It's too fun to be work. ;)

Our Penny puppy is doing well... God definitely blessed us with the perfect dog. She's a great companion when Ryan is working late, and I've got to say PRAISE GOD she is finally housebroken. We are getting her spayed later this month and I'm a little nervous about it, but I'm sure she'll do fine.

I'm sure there is more to update on that I'm forgetting, but I think that's all I'll post for now.

Peace and Love,

Amanda :)

January 17, 2005

"Death isn't always expected... but we are expected to accept it...

When it's my time, I want to leave knowing I did what I was meant to do...

No one's life is meaningless... everyone is here for a purpose.

If you've yet to figure out your purpose...

Don't worry

We don't really find out until we're gone."

April 5, 2005

"You amaze me day by day
With all your fake smiles and lies.


I see your heart, broken and dangling
Right alongside my hope for your awakening.
And I just thought you should know...
That you're not hiding anything--
I see right through you.


When will you understand that love is real?
When will it finally seep through?
I need these tears, sorrow, and pain to disappear...
But I don't have a clue.


With the stars surrounding us,
And the moon up high...
I want you to know,
So are my hopes that your tears will dry."

January 19, 2006

I don't write much any more... but I'm glad I have access to my old stuff.



"If we don't survive this

It wasn't meant to be.

There are angels among us

They haven't given up

There are miracles waiting to happen

All we have to do is open our eyes"

August 8, 2006

And... another old journal entry.


"Memories captured,
Hung on a wall
Stars don't truly shine
Until after they fall


With anticipation of great love,
My hopes are high
God must have
Hung the moon tonight


I'm not ready to grow up,
But I'll grow if I must
I don't want these memories
To fade to dust


As our falling hearts turn to stars,
Let us not forget the moon"

September 2, 2006

Another old journal entry

"Building ourselves up
Only to be let down
Knowing that we're breaking
With no trace of a sound

It's hard to hide the pain
But we do it every day
If we ignore it
It might go away

A rain drop falls
Again, we rejoice
An angel just given wings
A mute child, a voice

It's pouring rain
Let's just forget the pain
Knowing that we're broken
And You love us the same

If dancing in the rain is all we've got
Then continue to shower us, Lord"

March 16, 2007

Another old journal entry...

"Defining moments occur at the most unexpected times... but yet, always the right ones. I think perspective has a great deal to do with it. I've learned that I need to cherish every moment I'm with someone... because it really COULD be the last time I see them. One more high five... one more hug... one more smile... one more kiss. The last one better be the best... but what if we forget? Will our very existence be forgotten along with it?

I love those moments when you just know that you're where you're supposed to be. You know the moments... when you're listening to a song, and suddenly tears come to your eyes. Or when you're talking to an old friend who is struggling and every word that comes out of your mouth seems to be perfect.

At times we forget that those who help us often need help themselves. Life is valuable. But until it's nearly taken from us, we don't grasp that value. Each hello and goodbye define who we are.

Putting effort in slowing down and appreciating life defines our fight. And though the fights differ in each person's being, there is one common goal... true happiness."